I really miss my best friend Molly. She is a professional ice skater and just signed a contract to stay in Guam for 6 MORE MONTHS! That means she wont be home until March! This is a letter she wrote me a few weeks ago that I just re-read and felt the need to post. A friendship like the one we have built, mostly by IM, letter and phone, do not come around more than once. Ok, gag me. I sound like a Lifetime Original Movie. I'll post something funny tomorrow. But for today, it is weepy time.
HEY BEAUTIFUL--
I just got home its about 7:30 pm...its about 4:30 am back in chicago. I have been gone all day cause its my day off...errands. I came home to hear your tearful message on my answering machine. I just wanted to jump in the phone right then and hug you and let u cry on my sholder. I would call u right now...but i am sure u have to work in the morning...so i will call u a little later when u will be awake. All i gotta say is ... keep ur chin up. I know its soo easy to say that, but i also know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You are totally at a transition period in your life. Think about it, everything is changing, sometimes change is good, sometimes its a HUGE adjustment. It can be extreamly lonely at times. I guess I know this because change is how I have always lived my life. Also, you are stressed, Money...equals stress. Which, I also understand completely. In fact, I am still barely keeping my head above water because of all the debt i accumulated, but I know it will get better. No one in life...(ok well maybe exept for the very rich, and Priscilla HA) doesnt have times in there life were they struggle beyond belief. The only way i can get through these times is to know, this will only make me stronger, and much more appreciative to my life, when things get better.
KNOW that u are the most amazing girl ever. I have met people all over the world, and yet u are the one person i want to run home to, to laugh with. I talk to u almost everyday,online, hopefully talk on the phone more. Everyone else Beth, I havent talked to at all. Priscilla and I talked once. YOU are a true friend, weather I am down, happy or half way across the world. This shows character. Life will turn around. There has been times in my life when I didnt even want to go on anymore, but thankfully I did, and things turned around. I am thinking about u right now...thinking about your miscariage, your mugging, your move, your decision thats on your sholders, your money issues...damn...no wonder your having a hard time baby...and the boy that turned out to be an asshole. THIS TO SHALL PASS...as my mommy always says.
I MISS U soo much. KNOW you have me, regardless of the time, if I am far away or not,think of me as someone u can vent to, even if u dont want me to say anything, u just want me to listen, to sort things out to VENT...im HERE.
Its so strange bc I was lacking a friend like U for sooo long. Always getting one sided friendships, I honestly prayed to God one day, asking for a friend...a REAL friend...
and i shit u not, I met you. Beautiful, Loving, Caring, Beth! I am soo lucky.
I am writing this to you...because i think u need to not be so hard on your self...and KNOW that things will be ok....Oh funny how u just said all this to me not so long ago in Korea...WE ARE SOO ALIKE!
I LOVE YOU and i am HERE for you...and you are my SISTER!
I will call u tomorrow... Love u!
Molly