Anyone have any extra cash laying around that they could mail to me? I mean, I would really appreciate it. You'd have my undying gratitude for the rest of my time on this earth. As short as that may be.
I am strapped... and not with a gat or anything cool like that. I am strapped for cash in a bad way. My exorbitant spending has led me down a path of negative checking account balances and minimum bill payments. Today is the day I have set aside to call some of the people I owe money to. Bally's, Com Ed, People's Energy, Verizon, RCN, etc. and tell them they have to hold their horses for a week. Headache and a half.
And to make matter worse, the horrendous roommate found one final way to screw me over. I got notices from all three companies (RCN, Peoples Energy and Com Ed) that his final checks bounced... and they weren't even his checks, they were from the checkbook of someone named Mandy, who he claimed was his cousin that owed him money. I knew that sounded shady, but I just wanted to get the bills paid. So now this is all back on my head because I was the dumbass who put the bills all in my name. I am so broke right now, this is the last thing I need. The Bally's contract is a whole other headache. We are on a Bally's contract together and it is on my credit card. he was paying me cash every month. I hope there is a way to split it up. Hopefully, they have his social security number.
Last week I left him a message when I found out he was lying about having a job and that he was stealing checks. I told him that our friendship was over and not to call me anymore. Well now I don't know what to do, but this kid has made me a bitter person and I hate that.
So here is where a difficult decision comes in. I got a job offer in San Diego, which is where I want to end up someday. A friend from school has to go on maternity leave and she thought of me to replace her while she is gone. That way I can train and then move to another open position when she gets back. It is a job in multimedia production and pays considerably more a year. I really have a lot to think about. My gut says "Go for it!" I usually jump into things head first, without fully weighing out the ramifications. I have moved cross-country before, and as much as it is a pain in the ass, it is also something I am prepared for. I love adventure. The prospect of something new. A creative challenge at work. More money. Palm trees. Ocean. Being closer to my best friend from high school... but at the same time, I feel the need to examine my life here.
Things haven't been the greatest lately. So this opportunity seems to have came at the perfect time. It should be an easy decision. In Chicago, I am broke. My love life sucks. It gets super cold. I am in a dead-end job. But here is the thing... I love the people I work with. I love the atmosphere. I love the location. The actual work is a bit boring, but I throw myself into it and make each damn car ad the best it can be.
You all know I love Chicago. I just fit here. I have made some amazing friends that have become like air to me. The thought of leaving them makes me tear up. I would have to start all over making new friends, and I have always sucked at that. I lucked out in Chicago living where I did because I had a built-in base of friends from which all my relationships now have stemmed from.
I have also signed a lease for a year. I can always get a sub-leaser, but is that fair to Josh, Christine and Mike? I really love my apartment now and I doubt I would find anything as great in San Diego for the price. I really love my living situation, but we are still in the honeymoon stage. I would also be leaving my family. But they are used to that.
I am at a crossroads. I can not see clearly down either path at all. Please God, send me a sign. A raise. A part-time job. A lotto win. Anything. My head says San Diego but my heart... she is loyal to Chi-Town.