I can't stop listening to "My Immortal" by Evanesance. I really can't. It is haunting me. Can you be in love with a song?
Man, oh man, whatta night. Hadda date. Brian. Toy poodle guy. Sooooo hot. Want to touch the heinie. Oh wait, I did.
We went to a cute little Thai place on Broadway and then over to Kendall's for dollar beer. Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy. But how, may I ask, at dollar beer night do I end up spending $70? What the hell?!?!? Jager Bombs at $8 a piece? Um, highway robbery, anyone? Holy hell, I drink too much. The last time I gave a urine sample it had an olive in it.
But still... I'm walking on sunshine. Oh oh oh!
How many times can a person tell you they are not going to hurt you and that they really like you and that you make them happy? Apparently not enough, because that is what our whole conversation consisted of last night. I have a wall up because of shady people in my past and he is trying his damndest to break on through. I don't know whether to let him or not. I guess only time will tell. He needs to show me instead of just telling me. Actions speak louder than words and insert some other stupid cliche right... here.
We had a fun little PDA night. Lead to some groping in the cab. His place or mine? His was closer. So his it was. It's been awhile for good 'ol Bethany. And by awhile I mean 3 weeks. But still, I am nearing my prime and the looks all go downhill from here. Brian was Temptation Island and I really didn't want to get voted off. I was determined to really spend more time with him before giving up the boo-tay. But last night I justified to myself that a proper girl now-a-days is allowed to succumb after the 3rd date. I know, you are supposed to be in love and wear white to your wedding. Sex without love is an empty experience, but as empty experiences go it's a pretty good one.
I smell like smoke so bad right now. No time to take a shower because I was too busy reveling in post-coital bliss! Oh! Come on people... smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost a very important part of your life.
Go make out with me. I get all happy when I see the numbers climb and it really makes my day. So help a sister out.